Having a Bad Day :-(

Hello everyone.

As you probably tell from the title, I am not having a good day today. I am trying to find a new doctor, but I am not finding what I need in Virginia Beach. My insurance representative recommended that I try the Dupaul Medical Center, but when I called, they are not accepting anymore patients with due dates before December :-( So my dreams of having a Midwife, may have to end before it even started.

I know many people may not see a big deal with having a baby with an OB/GYN, but let me give you some history on me. I have never been hospitalized before, so the idea of going to the hospital makes me feel like something is wrong or will go wrong. Having a baby is not a medical condition people, it is something that women all over the world have been doing for hundreds of years. To pay for a Midwife, out of pocket, its about $600 to $1000. What the heck is insurance for, if I would have to come out of pocket for medical care. If I want a Douala, that will be about an extra $300 to $500. What is a girl to do?

I have already tried my best fake cry to my fiance, but he is not budging with the funds, so back to plan B: find an office with less doctors. This is a lot harder than it looks! I have had a lot of people refer me to Dr. Grey in Chesapeake, VA., but there is about 6 doctors in that practice. The odds of him being available at my birth is...duh.. 1:6. Do I go with those odds? I found an office in Virginia Beach that has a Midwife on staff, but I have to fill out a crap load of medical history forms and wait to see if they will accept me already at 15 weeks and 2 day!!! Ahhhhhh!!!!

My anxiety is growing by the minute. My fiance is pretty laid back, and keeps telling me to relax, but how can I relax when I technically do not have someone to help me bring a human life into this world. ok, ok I guess that may seem dramatic, but I am a first time mom, and I am allowed to be dramatic!

So, whats a girl to do, as the weeks begin to creep on me and I am feeling backed in a corner? Well, Operation Crazy Mon To Be is in effect, and I can no longer be the nice girl anymore. This is about the well being of my child, so (excuse the phonetics) imma have to get gully on some folks!!

My goal is to find one before my weekend cruise with my twin sis and childhood friend. The hunt is on, and no one is safe lol!!

Wish me luck!

Sabrina