I know it has been awhile, but I have had a lot of work to get done in the past week. I have officially completed my last assignment for my master's degree program. I was pulling some tough all-nighters to get it all finished , and I got it done. Now, I have to wait a week or 2 to find out if I passed and will receive my master's degree. FINGERS CROSSED! I thought to myself that one this class was all over, I would try to start enjoying my pregnancy.....but that doesn't seem to be happening yet.
Don't get me wrong here; I love this baby, and I pray everyday that it is growing healthy and strong (like his/her dad). But me on the other hand, I am a ball of anxiety, irritability, insomniacs, and plain ol' nerves. I know people say this is all normal, but I have to wonder if i am just crazy. i know a lot has to do with being so far away from family. My Big Sis came to visit me, and I finally felt like I had a good 1 1/2 days. When she left, I just felt very lonely and bored. Now, I know what you are thinking-"where the hek is ur baby daddy?" lol He works away from home, so unfortunately, I don't get to see him as often as I would like. I have to say lucky for him, because these hormones do not make me a nice person to anyone. I have lived in this part of Virginia for almost 2 years, and unfortunately it still doesn't really feel like home sometimes. In Tennessee, everyone is friendly and you meet people everywhere and there are always real friends and family around. Here, I have a great mother-in-law! she is hilarious and is so excited about the baby, but sometimes I wish I just had a good girlfriend that came over to chill and eat popcorn and watch Scandal with, but people are not very friendly down here. I have met some people, but sometimes it feels like "ugh who wants to hang out with the pregnant chick." But geeze we have feelings to, we still like to do things. I still like going to the mall, and going out to eat, and going to the beach, and to the movies. But, It seems that I don't really have people to ask here to do those things with.
Ok ok enough with the cry baby stuff. Symptoms this week are insomnia, increased appetite, and exhaustion. Sometimes I lay in the bed and can't fall asleep. I have tried to do my hypnobirthing, but then I wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep. Ugh so then I am so tired by the time its mid-day and it makes me cranky. I have felt like a bottomless pit. eating and eating and not feeling full. I do LOVE marshmallows and salt. I can't say if that is vegan approved, but its so good, when I am having a bad day. I have been using Bio-oil and Carol's Daughter Sexy Belly, for my stomach, but I am still getting stretch marks :-( I had already had some pre-pregnancy, but not they are getting thicker and longer which kind of sucks. But I will need to accept battle scars of pregnancy. The baby moves like crazy, and I am glad he/she likes spicy foods. I haven't had heartburn this week which is good, but I have been drinking water throughout the day so I think it is helping.
I haven't felt like nesting just yet. I completed the crib just because my mother-in-law bought everything, but nothing new yet! Here is what it looks like for now. (it is yellow). I am still wanting to keep the gender a secret, so everything is a neutral theme. I have made a "Master List" of all the essential things I need to purchase. Bobby pillow, extra sheets, extra blanket, towels, bottles, bottle cleaner, bath tub, Breast pump (mine will be free), night lights, baby monitor (optional) and large medicine ball (pour moi). I also wanted to get a new baby rug, but haven't been able to fine one yet. I have my next ultrasound appointment in a week and I am very excited for it. I haven't had one since my first appointment at 10 weeks. I am nervous about stepping on the scale. My stomach is definitely bigger, and my clothes are definitely NOT fitting, but I am hoping that the weight is still steady.
Next week, I will let you know how my appointment went.
See you soon,
Sabrina
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